lolita stir crazy

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i hope i can make this quick because this break from studying has gone on long enough...

last week i had 3 exams of which NONE went how i expected them to AT ALL aka im a MEGA FOCKING FLOP and im so sad to say for the first time in my life i have received an F standing for FUCKMYLIFE

OH MY GODDDDUHHHH 

anyway im dedicating the rest of my academic life to being light yagami in cram school . i CANNOT keep up with this rambunctious lifestyle discussed in my previous posts. ITS NOT WORKING.  

but i came down with the sickness on wednesday, hit pretty bad on thursday and friday so i took off work those days. of course i wasnt miserable since that was BEFORE i learned my grades. the entire week i was consumed by an all soul eating obsession with lolita shopping.

i have been scrolling and refreshing and flicking between lacemarket, depop, mercari, and my inbox and it is DEBILITATING. the only way to curb this was buying a secondhand blouse 

source: devilinspired

yeah its devilinspired but its f*cking cute okay. none of my normie blouses are particularly loliable but i love those blouses for work anyway.

there should be a name for this kind of hysteria i think... that causes me to fail exams and pretend to be aloof when im not . and make me want to spend every cent in my bankg account

i;ll just act like finals week is every day and im constantly in death row...yea that'll work....

so im resigning myself to one show a month and less boba than ever before. DEBILITATING......

fuck tax fuck audit i wanna be a normal ass accountant. theres so many other things you can do in accounting i dont know why they make us do this... idont want to tell myself this isnt for me because that does soemthing like psychologically to you but genuinely i DONT THINK TAX IS FOR MEEE and audit because theyre both so fucking boringOMFG anyway lets go to school -_-